Monday, February 12, 2007
___the loser i am
What a damn loser I am. Seriously, I thought I was being gungho and brave to stand up against what I was unhappy about at sun - my schedule. And I went to leave just like that. But I've landed myself in an even more unhappy situation. And all I want to do now is to go back to sun.
The pay at shiro is so attractive I guess I was tempted in my state of rebelling against sun. But I couldn't help crying today as I simply couldn't get used to the environment at shiro at all, and I missed sun so badly. I felt so depressed it quite shocked me. My first day of work, and things have turned out so badly. I know I won't be happy. Like even how I tried to force myself to smile, it just didn't work.
I guess I'm too emotional a person - sentimentally tied to sun even as I complained about the management. Now everything has come crashing down around me as I struggle to come to terms with the fact that I want to quit shiro after a mere day of work. The atmosphere of work is so different, and there just wasn't any welcoming warmth at shiro. The comparisons started pouring into my mind and sun shines when placed side by side with shiro. And I'm quite bent on this decision of quitting. Oh damn it, my second resignation in just 2 months of starting work.
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