Saturday, January 13, 2007
___mixed feelings
I'm happier now I guess, after getting over all that stress or learning to live and cope with it. I've learnt how to be a little more selfish or self-defensive in my work, to look after myself rather than being a busybody about what other people are doing. I've learnt not to care and compare that much, but focus on excelling in my work. Perhaps work is really different from school in this aspect. The priority is to save your own skin most of the time, unlike school where I was given free rein to poke my nose into other people's business. Anyway, because of how I've learnt to cope with everything, I feel much better about working and trying my best to be the best in what I do. A lot of thanks goes to my mentor-and-friend yee shih, whose street-wise attitude and maturity has helped me a lot in understanding the working world better.
It's becoming quite a routine to catch up with friends once I get my off days settled each week. Actually I realise I don't mind being a part-timer and just working 5 days a week, so that perhaps my weekends can be freed. It's really relaxing to be able to see friends I don't get to see that often anymore, to share a little about our lives and to chill out over food and drinks. Today I went out with quite a few friends and I suddenly felt quite overwhelmed by the feeling of peace and comfort I had while just chatting to these people. We're friends for a reason I guess, and these weekly gatherings bring me away from the more superficial things I talk about with my work people to more in-depth sharing of feelings with these friends of mine.
Suddenly I feel that I might want to step out of my work to start picking up driving again, to write again, and to learn dancing. I need time to do all these and I'm quite confused about where to place my priority. Is waitressing going to be my priority? Or is it writing since my future career path lies in that? Or is it getting my driving licence since I'm almost there and I don't want to have wasted my time and money? I don't quite know which direction to take.
I still feel a little empty though.
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