___the official end
AGM put a concrete end to the term of the 05/06 band members. It was all marked out in words, in speeches and there just seemed to be a heavy sense of finality about our journey with NJCSB.
I've really had one of the best experiences of my life in NJ band. This is something non-band members wouldn't be able to understand, I guess. The band life is such a special and unique experience to us, something that we hold dear to our hearts. As for me, I've really enjoyed serving the band as a welfarian and been in love with my dearest percussion section. I know NJ band will never be the same again, that the two years I've gone through can never be recreated. As I step into the band room nowadays, what I see is a totally new and budding band of J1s, and I know that it's all different already. That it's time for us to let go.
I'm willing to let go, to let the J1s learn how to handle everything themselves because soon we'll not even be in NJ anymore. Yet I'm filled with this sense of loss, the fact that everything about this band is going to become memories. I don't know how to put it, but I really feel that NJ band has been a gift in my life. It's kept me going all this while. The people, the music, the laughter, the difficult times. Band life has always been filled with emotions and it's where I pour my heart into.
I'll miss everything. The hard work we have been through as welfarians, working with joanne and whining to her, getting all the events successfully planned and carried out. The fun we had as a section, playing my heart out with percussion, doing our section and ourselves proud with every performance, being such a united section amidst all the disagreements we might have had, loving one another as section mates. The laughter I had with everyone in the band, the several band lunches after band practice, the fact that Saturdays were forever reserved. I'm so afraid that with the end of my journey with NJCSB, everything will become memories and nothing else.
I want to be able to play percussion with my dearest section mates again, I want to be able to rush here and there for the sake of getting things done for the band. Somehow I know it's all over, but I don't want it to be. This beautiful experience has truly been a blessing to me. NJ band is where most of my best friends are, where I want to smile and laugh and scream their names, where so much has happened and bonded all of us together. At least I'm glad that the friendships I've forged will be able to carry me through, even without band anymore.
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