Tuesday, November 01, 2005
___weary
I'm tired and weary all of a sudden from having to concentrate entirely on one single thing in my life. I need a temporary escape. I need a breather. I don't know why, but I feel so drained and so empty suddenly. I feel unappreciated, rejected and just like an abandoned toy being thrown from one place to another. It's not a good feeling at all. Please consider my feelings before you decide on anything concerning me.
Auntiess!! Sorry if I was insensitive or being especially disagreeable today. Was in a totally bad mood and really needed to whine but did not really dare to. Because I could see that you were not in the best of moods too. Oh well, at least we managed to make ourselves useful in the end. I'm so proud of us!
Many people have started to turn my attention to the issue of having a boyfriend versus having friends. With a boyfriend, so much precious time that could easily be spent with friends is lost. This makes friendships less strong and more vulnerable. Call me selfish, but I don't think I would like my best friends to start spending so much less time with me when they get a boyfriend. It just undermines one's importance. Yet I'm so afraid that one day I might turn out to be like that too.
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