___so many thoughts
So many thoughts whirling in my mind, yet too disorganised for me to write them all out. I think I am happy but why is there still something negative pulling me down? It seems so long since I ever laughed in a wholeheartedly crazy manner. I must watch more Taiwanese variety shows. haha. I remember Jacky Wu making me laugh like some madwoman around midnight some time last year. It felt good. =)
I want to make people smile. I think it makes me feel so much better when I can cheer a dear friend up. I feel like making people happy, to let them laugh with abandon. But sometimes I feel so helpless because I don't know what to do. I seriously think all I can do is to lend a listening ear, and a shoulder to lean on. I really hope it'll help.
Band is not bad now, with the J1s becoming closer. Although we have to settle the section conflict, I find comfort in the fact that the J1 batch is united. No matter how terribly draining band practice is, I think I sort of find fulfillment afterall in the busy schedule.
As for the class, I think that the realities about people are surfacing. And they're not very pretty ones. But it's alright, it just makes the people whom I hang out with in the class much more beautiful. I look forward to school because of my dearest friends. Seeing them always makes my mood better and this is maybe what school is about for me. A sad fact that I'm not in school to learn, but so true.
Listening to "With heart and voice". It makes my heart sing with joy.
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