I've moved.
Don't ask me why because I really am not sure why I suddenly moved too.
http://iwashmymouth.livejournal.comIt's funny to have to say bye to this blog I've been writing in for 2 years plus.
timecheck: 12:16 AM
___whine whine whine
I really think I'm suffering from pms.
I'm feeling damn lethargic and moody and cranky.
I need to whine and whine about my work and my hard-to-get internship and my lack of sleep and my lack of personal time and everything else.
Maybe more sleep will do me some good.
timecheck: 9:15 AM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
___im alive
I've been so tired to blog but I'm finally here to announce that I'm alive and very well. And I'm feeling hungry at this time of 1 am and craving for some roti prata.
It's been almost a week since the release of my 'A' Level results and I must say that I feel grateful that at least I've done okay. I guess God has really given me satisfactory results and I've grown to be quite contented about what I've got. Though in the first place, everyone else seemed to have 3/4 As and I didn't and this made my results pale horribly in comparison. And I just didn't feel happy at all about having only a singular A. Oh well, at least I've met the criteria for entry into mass communications.
I realise that university application is damn troublesome! I'm too lethargic to start applying and writing essays and boasting about myself in resumes. But I guess I really have to sit myself down one day and force myself to finish all my applications to universities and for scholarships. I can't believe that soon another FOUR YEARS of studying will start. It's quite a scary thought.
Sometimes people make groundless accusations at me and I get so riled up.
timecheck: 8:57 AM
Monday, February 26, 2007
___oh nooo
A sense of dread fills me as I think about my impending doom. Oh damn it. I don't want to be so worried because I know there's no point at all in thinking about my results. But how not to be worried when it comes to haunt me in my dreams? I woke up so early today and couldn't go back to sleep simply because I had a stupid dream about me having damn bad results.
I just hope I won't be like terribly upset this friday. Oh no. FRIDAY. It's coming so soon.
I guess I do have high expectations afterall - of myself, of the people around me, of my job and previously my CCA. Maybe this is why I end up being so dissatisfied a lot of times, dissatisfied and disappointed. It's time for me to make do with less-than-perfect and to be happy despite things not meeting my expectations. I need to learn how to let go and be less stubborn.
timecheck: 8:39 AM
Sunday, February 18, 2007
___chinese new year!
It's the big event of the year once again - the start of a new year. I'm glad for chinese new year and the significance it plays, because it helps to bring the extended family together. And of course I'm glad for the red packets and the good food we get to eat. But seriously, I'm always bored by the amount of time I stand/sit around doing absolutely nothing.
I was so terribly bored yesterday and today that I just kept snacking. Oh damn it, I think I'm going to regain all the weight that I've managed to lose! I had better stop my snacking and think of more constructive things to do. Like watch television?
I seriously need to go out! I feel so restless that I can't really sit still at all.
timecheck: 8:56 AM
Friday, February 16, 2007
___a long time
I'm happy and in a good mood! It's been a long time since I've really felt happy. I'm glad to be able to smile genuinely - the first time ever since I started work at shiro.
I guess the time off work did me good, and I'm really so grateful to the manager for being so damn nice to me. She didn't even ask why I wanted to start work late with such short notice. So I happily started work at 6 instead of 3 (and in the end I couldn't get a cab so I reached at 7!). And today everyone was in a good mood because Chinese New Year is coming so soon! I even received a $50 red packet from one of the customers today who gave one red packet each to all the service staff. Woah I really marvel at how rich these people are.
And I guess the time spent with my dear friends from SUN really perked me up. Yay I'm looking forward to the Chinatown trip tomorrow!
P/S: I've already decided to continue staying on at shiro indefinitely till I find an internship at a magazine or TV station. I hope to find one soon by next month! Then I'll change my job - being an intern in the media sector so as to have an edge for entry into mass comm. Please help me to look out for internships!
timecheck: 9:16 AM
Monday, February 12, 2007
___the loser i am
What a damn loser I am. Seriously, I thought I was being gungho and brave to stand up against what I was unhappy about at sun - my schedule. And I went to leave just like that. But I've landed myself in an even more unhappy situation. And all I want to do now is to go back to sun.
The pay at shiro is so attractive I guess I was tempted in my state of rebelling against sun. But I couldn't help crying today as I simply couldn't get used to the environment at shiro at all, and I missed sun so badly. I felt so depressed it quite shocked me. My first day of work, and things have turned out so badly. I know I won't be happy. Like even how I tried to force myself to smile, it just didn't work.
I guess I'm too emotional a person - sentimentally tied to sun even as I complained about the management. Now everything has come crashing down around me as I struggle to come to terms with the fact that I want to quit shiro after a mere day of work. The atmosphere of work is so different, and there just wasn't any welcoming warmth at shiro. The comparisons started pouring into my mind and sun shines when placed side by side with shiro. And I'm quite bent on this decision of quitting. Oh damn it, my second resignation in just 2 months of starting work.
timecheck: 9:45 AM
